Losing hurts... O 🐋

I've lost before, lost people I've cared about, lost materialistic items, competitions, money lol, investments books, jobs, opportunities. The point is that I've lost enough to not be bothered by another, supposedly. But this last loss really got to me not gonna lie guys. So let me break it down for you savages.

Deka Fit 2023, July 9th 2023 the day I got my ass handed to me. I think it was because it was my birthday, maybe the universe's gift to me? The gift of never being content lol.. All jokes aside. Woke up that morning, had some water stretched and got myself over the the competition site. I hopped right in to competing as soon as I got to the facility. Any chance to psych an opponent out is one I'll take, the actual competition itself went well. I stayed moving, made good time and worked up to a good sweat. When I was done I saw that my work had resulted in third place. Only to spend the better part of my day. Watching it drop in ranking to 4th. But hey what is bitching about it going to do (Besides create the inspiration for this post) 

The reality is I was five minutes away from the 3rd, that shit was NOT happening that day.  

To be honest, I did my best that day, but I'm no fool I know you don't rise to the level of occasion, you fall to your level of training. So while I did my best that day, that was simply a result of all my training, and instruction from the weeks prior. So my best that day is a compilations of my best these past few weeks. Have to put more time in behind the scenes, to have a better result on stage.

I know at times this past year my training needed to be better to be the best. Some of you may think I'm hard on myself and that's okay. That may be so, but if I don't push myself to be better then who will?

As frustrating as it is to admit it. The only thing that was going to help me was a heavier dose of training, nutrition, sleep, and management of fatigue and recovery. I deserved to lose and I honestly I needed it. Even if it sucks, big time. To often we get complacent but screw that, the road to mastery is full of refinements, improvements, and growth. So truth be told I probably needed this, because once again that fire under my ass has been relight. 

The lesson from all this? Train harder, smarter and better then before. Because while losing is a part of success, it sucks and is preventable with proper training. (You'll probably still lose, albeit less but if you do everything you can it is what it is.)